I got pregnant in the summer of 2021. One month later, under the lights of planned parenthood’s finest fluorescence, I felt the exhilaration of fentanyl for the first time. “This is the best I’ve ever felt,” I told the doctor as she tapped out the Mario soundtrack on my cervix…

“We love God because He gave her to us. And we are angry at God because He took her away.” That is what the rabbi told us before the funeral as we, the family, sat in the cold, all marble lobby, waiting to see the body. I was surprised she…

Anything to avoid running into myself This piece is in no way meant to diminish the very real struggles that many people are experiencing during the COVID-19 pandemic. I write now about my own tribulations while acknowledging that I am incredibly privileged in this crisis. I never learned how to…

My own feelings paled in comparison to the men in my life — The language I have to discuss my experiences feels like a very gender essentialist view of human beings in many ways. Because this is my blog, I do not have language outside of my own experiences to express them otherwise. In no way does this encapsulate the range, depth, and…

All of my friends kind of want to die. I learned this when I stumbled across this piece by adrienne maree brown, one of my favorite writers of all time. She says, i have ideated suicide in the past, thought it didn’t much matter if i was here or not…